Dear Lord,
I know you are here for all of us whether we believe or not. I know
you have a plan and although we may not understand it, everything happens for a
reason. It is for this reason that I may
ask you why we have had to endure all this snow and ice?
I realize that some people may have prayed for “one good snow” and
I can appreciate it, but if my children do not go back to school soon, we may
have a moment straight from the movie, “The Shining”. I am so sick of the constant fighting,
eating, dragging out of toys, fighting, and constant looking for
batteries. I can say that I have checked
the balances on my credit cards and I could escape. I realize this may not be the “right” thing
to do but I’m a woman who knows her limitations.
I am aware that I am not a model citizen, I have caused a lot of
problems in my days but I don’t know who deserves the environment that I have
been living in over a week. Between
these 4 children I have purchased enough bread, milk, cereal, and batteries
that would cost an entire paycheck.
I have one who is constantly rebooting the internet, disgusted with
his speed (we have the fastest available in our area) and complaining. I
reminded him today that there are those who are without power and we should be
very content….the next child in line has managed to start a fight with EVERY
single person within a 100 feet distance. I cannot tell you how many
altercations I have presided over, just call me Judge Judy.
Poor Cooper has not had enough stimulation to keep him occupied and
therefore has been very hyperactive. I have considered either crating him or
putting him on a run line in the back yard.
Charleigh Joe is the only one who has had contact with the outside world
as she has been to daycare a few times.
My husband has started to tear up several times, usually when
staring out the window looking at newly formed precipitation. I have assured
him that they will return to school soon, sometimes we have to tell half-truths
to get through hard times. I got a winter weather advisory calling for more
snow tomorrow. I didn’t tell him. I can’t stand to see a man cry.
In light of all that has transpired, I wish to express my
thankfulness that I am warm, have electricity, and my family is well.
Also, I am about to go fucking crazy if these children don’t go
back to school soon... I will be happy to take any children who live on Highway
84 into school if they will just open the fucking doors. I don’t think that a large percentage of
people realize that by leaving children at home for extended periods of time,
without breaks, causes parents to contemplate and sometimes make bad
decisions. The struggle is real.
I have decided that this is a cry for help. I am at my wits
end. I cannot begin to express my
frustration with the daily fights, one of my children is like a court
reporter. He reads back the minutes of
everything that everyone has done all day.
I just want to be left alone.
Lord, if you are listening, help to save my children and any other
children that are in danger right now. Warm up our area, no more snow, lots of
sunshine and let those school buses roll on.
